Really was feeling God's hand in my circumstances last week, then all of a sudden a complete change of heart and mood. It seems from other blogs that this is a natural occurrence in grief, but it is so upside down, not sure I understand it and defo don't like it xx

The weather outside is........... cold, and snowy .....but I am hoping it will be bright tomorrow. Planning a trip to  a cultural craft market but the weathers not looking too promising. This month is a year after what I feel was the beginning of the end, so I am trying to write down as much as I can and get it out of my system, mainly on widows site where I know I am safe. I was going to play hooky from church tomorrow, I know, I know, but maybe the weather has put a stop to that. We'll see.

My little Edie pops and family came home from holiday on last Thursday it was good to have them home. Both Mum and Dad had been invited to separate birthday parties on Saturday so I took the opportunity to have her overnight. You know when young women say they are far too young to be grandparents? Well, I think I'm far too old! At 57 I know it's no to old, but having a lively 17month old round the house once more is such hard work. You know, the simple things like taking a 'potty' break as Renee Swope so eloquently puts it, is a no no unless you take her with you :)

I am the administrator at church and do the notices on Sunday morning so need to be up there at around 10 and usually people want info and for me to do stuff but its difficult with a buggy in hand, the worship was great she loves music, then I entered the iner sanctum of 'The Creche' Nooooooooo.

It was great really but by the time I got home and did lunch I really needed her to take a nap.
I had a ball and no doubt I will be eager to do it again, grandchildren are as another of my lovely Blog widows puts it ' Chicken Soup for the Soul'. Hope you have a great week girls. Will be back with news of my new venture @ church The Well Coffee Shop. This was put on hold when David became ill but I think now is the time to re-launch....watch this space Big Love xoxoxoxox Linda xoxoxox Hugs and kisses

First of many?

Well the evening was a success. Even after the enemy had conspired to make my day unpleasant. But was so blessed to have people come and pray and have fellowship in my home once more, even better (sorry men) to have eleven Christian Ladies praying for their 
children families and the ones going through a hard time at our church. (Only cried quietly once) The food was awesome and very chocolatey!!! But we did have some savouries too. 

I shared about Lifeboat, widow2widow and the other widows ministries in the US, we prayed specifically for them.
So blessed. Thank you Lord for counting me worthy to serve You.

Is this the beginning of something?

Ladies Prayer Supper tomorrow night, now how on earth did I volunteer to host this? Really panicking now, but actually looking forward to it. Will have to shop after work for more nibbles there are twice as many ladies coming than I had planned for. God, are you drawing your daughters together and towards you?I do hope so.

It is so strange, but I have never really felt comfortable in ladies company, I'm not a girly girl or good at chatting, but you seem to keep drawing me into arranging Ladies Events and situations where I can help and support them, funny, as I do find it difficult to accept help.

day 1 of hols

This is the first day of my daughter and the gangs holiday. The plane journey was great and Edie even had a nap, much to their relief. The apartment is amazing and its nice and sunny. So I am really pleased for them and am happily waiting for them to come home next week. Need to find stuff to fill my time till then. Hmmmm what to do, oh yes Lord, what will you have me do today? lol

Holidays

My lovely daughter and family have gone on a much needed holiday today to the Canaries. I am so jealous, but I think a bit scared that they are going away, I think I feel deserted but I know I have no reason to. Grief is such a strange emotion. Can't wait to find out all the great things they did when they come back.