Well, its such a long time since I have written anything about my journey, apart from short comments on Widows sites.I have such a lot going through my head and heart, just having trouble putting them down on paper(computer). When I read the ladies comments about their journalling, I wonder if I will forget and miss something that God wants me to remember about this time. I did start to write at the beginning of the journey but it seems to have dried up. It is our 33rd Wedding Anniversary on Saturday 21st April I have read that some widows don't think to say it is still their day, but although he is no longer here and my vows said till death do us part, I still feel like its still relevant to us.
It will be seven months since my beloved died, on Sunday 22nd April. And 31 years on the 25th April since our lovely daughter went to be with Jesus. Dates follow us round don't they. I am not sure how I will feel next weekend. I have been invited to a Christening on the Sunday, really not sure about that one. God is speaking to me, I know this today, I was disobedient yesterday, and He had to reveal His will to me more clearly today, but then it was too late to act, nothing major, thank goodness. I am not yet sure where He is leading me for the future, so it will have to remain baby steps one day at a time. I hope to return here more often so I thank you for stopping by and may the Lord bless you.

Hi folks I know its a while since I posted but I got really fed up with writing depressing posts so I guessed you would get fed up of reading them :) Well, today I felt a shift and actually felt a lightness in my spirit as I walked to church this morning, there was a change in the atmosphere and a new feel about the worship, I could feel God speaking to me and although my heart is still broken I can feel the band-aid as He is binding it. I give God all the glory and am not even going to ask why now, just enjoying the difference. May The Lord bless you and give you the desires of you heart. Linda xx

Really was feeling God's hand in my circumstances last week, then all of a sudden a complete change of heart and mood. It seems from other blogs that this is a natural occurrence in grief, but it is so upside down, not sure I understand it and defo don't like it xx

The weather outside is........... cold, and snowy .....but I am hoping it will be bright tomorrow. Planning a trip to  a cultural craft market but the weathers not looking too promising. This month is a year after what I feel was the beginning of the end, so I am trying to write down as much as I can and get it out of my system, mainly on widows site where I know I am safe. I was going to play hooky from church tomorrow, I know, I know, but maybe the weather has put a stop to that. We'll see.

My little Edie pops and family came home from holiday on last Thursday it was good to have them home. Both Mum and Dad had been invited to separate birthday parties on Saturday so I took the opportunity to have her overnight. You know when young women say they are far too young to be grandparents? Well, I think I'm far too old! At 57 I know it's no to old, but having a lively 17month old round the house once more is such hard work. You know, the simple things like taking a 'potty' break as Renee Swope so eloquently puts it, is a no no unless you take her with you :)

I am the administrator at church and do the notices on Sunday morning so need to be up there at around 10 and usually people want info and for me to do stuff but its difficult with a buggy in hand, the worship was great she loves music, then I entered the iner sanctum of 'The Creche' Nooooooooo.

It was great really but by the time I got home and did lunch I really needed her to take a nap.
I had a ball and no doubt I will be eager to do it again, grandchildren are as another of my lovely Blog widows puts it ' Chicken Soup for the Soul'. Hope you have a great week girls. Will be back with news of my new venture @ church The Well Coffee Shop. This was put on hold when David became ill but I think now is the time to re-launch....watch this space Big Love xoxoxoxox Linda xoxoxox Hugs and kisses

First of many?

Well the evening was a success. Even after the enemy had conspired to make my day unpleasant. But was so blessed to have people come and pray and have fellowship in my home once more, even better (sorry men) to have eleven Christian Ladies praying for their 
children families and the ones going through a hard time at our church. (Only cried quietly once) The food was awesome and very chocolatey!!! But we did have some savouries too. 

I shared about Lifeboat, widow2widow and the other widows ministries in the US, we prayed specifically for them.
So blessed. Thank you Lord for counting me worthy to serve You.

Is this the beginning of something?

Ladies Prayer Supper tomorrow night, now how on earth did I volunteer to host this? Really panicking now, but actually looking forward to it. Will have to shop after work for more nibbles there are twice as many ladies coming than I had planned for. God, are you drawing your daughters together and towards you?I do hope so.

It is so strange, but I have never really felt comfortable in ladies company, I'm not a girly girl or good at chatting, but you seem to keep drawing me into arranging Ladies Events and situations where I can help and support them, funny, as I do find it difficult to accept help.