Feeling better or different?

Hi everyone, I am not sure if I just feel different or I am dealing better with the devastation. I think my brain has chosen to ignore the fact that David is not here so that I can carry on as normal. I must say the Widows Christian Place daily encouragement are such a blessing and the GriefShare e.mails also help so much.They bring me back into line with God's word and my anger towards God is subsiding. Thank you to Ferree for wisdom sent to help me with my concerns about David's salvation, that was my main area of pain and anguish but thanks to a different view on biblical teaching I have been able to see things in a new light. My children are all dealing with David's death in their own way and its hard to leave them to do that. I pray that you are finding help wherever it comes from , God will send it in the right way for you to be comfortable with. God Bless xx