My little Edie pops and family came home from holiday on last Thursday it was good to have them home. Both Mum and Dad had been invited to separate birthday parties on Saturday so I took the opportunity to have her overnight. You know when young women say they are far too young to be grandparents? Well, I think I'm far too old! At 57 I know it's no to old, but having a lively 17month old round the house once more is such hard work. You know, the simple things like taking a 'potty' break as Renee Swope so eloquently puts it, is a no no unless you take her with you :)

I am the administrator at church and do the notices on Sunday morning so need to be up there at around 10 and usually people want info and for me to do stuff but its difficult with a buggy in hand, the worship was great she loves music, then I entered the iner sanctum of 'The Creche' Nooooooooo.

It was great really but by the time I got home and did lunch I really needed her to take a nap.
I had a ball and no doubt I will be eager to do it again, grandchildren are as another of my lovely Blog widows puts it ' Chicken Soup for the Soul'. Hope you have a great week girls. Will be back with news of my new venture @ church The Well Coffee Shop. This was put on hold when David became ill but I think now is the time to re-launch....watch this space Big Love xoxoxoxox Linda xoxoxox Hugs and kisses

First of many?

Well the evening was a success. Even after the enemy had conspired to make my day unpleasant. But was so blessed to have people come and pray and have fellowship in my home once more, even better (sorry men) to have eleven Christian Ladies praying for their 
children families and the ones going through a hard time at our church. (Only cried quietly once) The food was awesome and very chocolatey!!! But we did have some savouries too. 

I shared about Lifeboat, widow2widow and the other widows ministries in the US, we prayed specifically for them.
So blessed. Thank you Lord for counting me worthy to serve You.

Is this the beginning of something?

Ladies Prayer Supper tomorrow night, now how on earth did I volunteer to host this? Really panicking now, but actually looking forward to it. Will have to shop after work for more nibbles there are twice as many ladies coming than I had planned for. God, are you drawing your daughters together and towards you?I do hope so.

It is so strange, but I have never really felt comfortable in ladies company, I'm not a girly girl or good at chatting, but you seem to keep drawing me into arranging Ladies Events and situations where I can help and support them, funny, as I do find it difficult to accept help.

day 1 of hols

This is the first day of my daughter and the gangs holiday. The plane journey was great and Edie even had a nap, much to their relief. The apartment is amazing and its nice and sunny. So I am really pleased for them and am happily waiting for them to come home next week. Need to find stuff to fill my time till then. Hmmmm what to do, oh yes Lord, what will you have me do today? lol

Holidays

My lovely daughter and family have gone on a much needed holiday today to the Canaries. I am so jealous, but I think a bit scared that they are going away, I think I feel deserted but I know I have no reason to. Grief is such a strange emotion. Can't wait to find out all the great things they did when they come back.

Still tired...

Not sure what's happening just now.After  feeling I was turning a corner when I went back to work, this week I have been so tired. Really have no energy, don't think its a medical thing, well hope not anyway. Hoping it will pass after a couple of quiet weekend days.

My little treasure Edie pops is growing up so fast, I notices when they came over yesterday that she is getting to be a little girl now and not a baby.

God knows our every need

Morning friends, today I was meant to meet up with my very special girlfriend. I was so looking forward to it, or so I thought. I have been really tired recently and put it down to going back to work and getting back involved with life. As I was making some soup and scones for our lunch I received news that she could not come as her Granddaughter was sick and she needed to stay home to look after her. I couldn't believe it but I was relieved and I immediately realised how tired I was and how I just needed a day to myself (and God). The scripture 'I know your every need' (para) came to mind. Even if we don't know God does and acts accordingly thank you Lord.

Learning from others

Hi all, I have been checking out lots of  Widows Blogs, Widows sites and on-line resources since NY. All Christian. There are some wonderful and amazing Blogs out there, just wish I had a handle on what I was doing on mine lol. If the instructions are any more complex than a straight forward do this and that will happen, I'm stumped. I'm still not sure if people can actually access my Blog properly. I know I have a few followers and a couple of people have commented. Thank you sooo much to you.
I am leaning about being a Widow from WCP, widow2widow with Elaine, the girls @ A Widows Might and links from these through Facebook  have proved great support. I have enjoyed learning about the word Widow. Before I became one I would not have thought too deeply about it, but it seems like it has been a lifebelt for me since David passed and I was no longer a wife, I think I have actually enjoyed using it as an identity. I am three and half months since losing my other half of me and things are definitely 'different' not in ways I would have thought but in ways I cannot yet understand. After the initial trauma and devastation my life seems to have got back to very similar as it was before, just minus my Beloved. I feel Gods presence much more leading me. I had to go back to work, eventually as I no longer had David's income just a small pension and some government funding and as I am a church administrator and finance officer dealing with people a lot of the time I have to put what's happening in my life to one side and get on with the job, this seems to have helped take away the raw edge of grief. I am Trusting God and praying that all things are not going to come crashing down on me I am not doing this in my own strength, that this is God upholding me with His mighty right hand. Bless you for stopping by. :) (((((((HUGS)))))))

No place like home

Was invited out to a Polish friends house that I haven't been to since David was taken ill, it was lovely but their culture is if you visit you stay for a while. Although I enjoyed her company after a few hours I really needed to get home. I hope this goes away soon.

Holiday over - thankgoodness

First proper day back at work today. Wasn't really looking forward to it but, not surprisingly after asking God to change my spirit of heaviness for a garment of praise it was okay. Really praying for direction,lots of reading materials have come tome recently and I know I have to consider carefully where to go and what to study at this time. Prayers for direction would be really appreciated. Blessings to you all xx

Lunch Out

Hiya folks, had lunch out at my eldest Sons, (Andrew) with his girlfriend Anja who was down from Edinburgh for Christmas where she is studying gor her Phd i n Law. Lovely peaceful time and time to get across some things about how I wasdealing with Davids death via Anja to Andrew who would not probably accepted them if I was alone speaking to him. Thank you Lord xx

2012

well here we are 2012. I feel like I am just carrying on as before. Nothing has changed in my life apart from the fact my beloved is no longer waling by my side. I am so scared that when something changes I wont be able to deal with it.