Well, its such a long time since I have written anything about my journey, apart from short comments on Widows sites.I have such a lot going through my head and heart, just having trouble putting them down on paper(computer). When I read the ladies comments about their journalling, I wonder if I will forget and miss something that God wants me to remember about this time. I did start to write at the beginning of the journey but it seems to have dried up. It is our 33rd Wedding Anniversary on Saturday 21st April I have read that some widows don't think to say it is still their day, but although he is no longer here and my vows said till death do us part, I still feel like its still relevant to us.
It will be seven months since my beloved died, on Sunday 22nd April. And 31 years on the 25th April since our lovely daughter went to be with Jesus. Dates follow us round don't they. I am not sure how I will feel next weekend. I have been invited to a Christening on the Sunday, really not sure about that one. God is speaking to me, I know this today, I was disobedient yesterday, and He had to reveal His will to me more clearly today, but then it was too late to act, nothing major, thank goodness. I am not yet sure where He is leading me for the future, so it will have to remain baby steps one day at a time. I hope to return here more often so I thank you for stopping by and may the Lord bless you.
Dearest Linda,
ReplyDeleteThank you for visiting my blog and for your kind words in your comment. It is interesting how God brings people together, isn't it?
My heart goes out to you as you are coming up on your seven month mark and are facing your first wedding anniversary without your beloved. The "firsts" are especially hard to experience as I'm sure you remember from mourning the loss of your precious daughter all those many years ago. Those dates on the calendar will trigger emotions that are painful, but are a necessary part of your healing journey. It will get easier. Although we never forget; we just adjust to our new reality and get used to our loved ones not being here to share our lives.
April 21st marks the three year anniversary of my sweetheart's passing into his face to face meeting with our Lord. How blessed our men are! His reality brings me great comfort!
Embrace your grief this week as your significant days arrive. You are doing the important and courageous work of dealing with the pain of your loss. There is no other healthy way.
I have found that distraction has been helpful in my case. Maybe the Christening would be a pleasant time for you, if the Lord is leading you to attend. It's okay if you break down while you are there. It still happens to me pretty regularly and I just accept it as part of the healing process. Keep writing too, as it will be beneficial in the healing of your heart.
You are doing well as you move through this process, clinging to the Lord as you move forward. Baby steps are very important and trusting the Lord, one day at a time is the best prescription you can follow. He walks with you!
Blessings and hugs,
Renee'
Glad to see you writing again Linda. These days of remembrance are significant in our lives. Anniversaries are important to us - no matter what others say. Mark these days as you feel led in whatever way that is meaningful to you. I will be keeping you in my prayers as these days come about wishing that you find peace and a special "hug" from God. You are a woman of strong faith and God will continue to guide you as you move forward. If you miss something He will continue to remind you for He loves you so.
ReplyDeleteI see you are no stranger to the grief walk. The firsts are hard ... I'm finding the seconds interesting in their own right. In some ways, I miss my D even MORE. I really miss the camaraderie, the comfortabless of going places together ... even walks. So thankful for the Lord's presence and comfort. Look forward to the day when we shall see Him face to face and see our loved ones once again. In the meantime learning to be content with all patience (which I am very short on).
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