Wow, I can not believe its so long since I wrote on here.
I have had so much happen that I would have liked to share, it just seems so hard to put pen to paper
( fingers to keypad). I am so afraid I will forget things but seem unable to share.
I read the amazing strength giving Blogs of other lovely widows and think what to I have to contribute?
I am in the midst of 'getting on with life' and 'scared of leaving my beloved behind'.
It seems to be easier just to get on with what God has given me to do, but the the guilt hits me.
Am I forgetting our times? Will I never be able to sit and think of Him and our times together without the pain? So is it easier not to?I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE HIM BEHIND! But he is gone. And I must live on.
The word I have received from God is 'Make a Difference' so Am I making a difference? A mixture of excitement and dread. Lord I pray for - - - whatever you have planned for me. Amen. Bless you for visiting xx